heart ART reflections

  It's a love-hate relationship.  I love the way poppies grow all over - swaying every which way with colorful blooms at the end that stand out above the green.  But I hate the way the green look like weeds - messy, straggly and looking out of control.  I admire it's wildness and freedom but am annoyed by it at the same time.  Sometimes I think that reflects my life - I want to feel that spontaneity but hate feeling out of control.   Always be prepared, do everything perfect and don't make mistakes.  Those were the mantras in my head growing up.  My threshold for feeling out of control was very low so trying to apply these to life  created a lot of anxiety, doubt and a comfortable homebody that feared taking risks and making mistakes.   I want to plan and be ready so that I'm not caught off guard; I want to know what will happen and how to prepare for things so I don't make mistakes.  Not taking risks closes doors to possi...